the stars will cry the blackest tears tonight

10:11 pm

this week has been good..except for the rain. I love the rain but it sucks when you are supposed to go out with people. This guy called me that i havnt talked to in like 3 months so thats cool i think we are gunna go hang out either this week or when i get back from oklahoma. Either way i def. want to hang out with him! haha well nothing else has really happened...im a counselor at a camp right now so that pretty much takes up all my time..

04:57 pm

wow its been forever since i have written in here. Lets see last week i went to east texas with kerri and vince. We had  a lot of fun riding 4 wheelers and everything but im really glad to be home, the mobile homes were really scary during the stoms.. Last night me and amber and my mom and dad were eating at the resturant when Tom the guy who runs it came over and was talking about how Hank Jr. had called him and he wanted our resturant to cater them before the show..so he got like 8 back stage passes and he gave 3 to me my mom and amber...so thats where im headed now..Kevin Fowler is playing tonight but Joey likes to remind me that im not 18 so i cant go see him at the midnight rodeo..so i guess hank is the next best thing!

Current Mood: hyper

10:16 pm - raindrops on roses..

So its finally summer. Im so god damn happy. Last night was fun Samantha came over and im not allowed to say what we did cuz we almost got the cops called on us but after all that was over we went back to my house and sat out on the driveway for atleast 5 hours with Amanda Phipps and just hung out and talked about practically everything . But yeah I never realized how much im going to miss some people next year..like today i went to one of my best friends graduation...im not going to lie i cried haha but me and Kerri have gone through so much..i mean shes going to be here next year and everything cuz shes not going off to college shes staying here but still its sad. Then when i got home it started to rain...so me and my mom sat outside like we always do when it rains and just talked..but this time something was different...like she wanted to tell me something i dunno maybe it was just me thinking that...

Current Mood: calm

03:18 pm - ......

so lately ive been missing people that i havnt talked to in a while. Like i guess summer brings back memories or something but haha i dunno. Anyways last weekend was pretty cool i went to a couple of parties with kerri and vince then on saturday i spent the whole day in smithville that was ok but i didnt get home till like 2 or something. So yeah but this week has gone by really fast. I cant wait till summer..and next year.. haha

Current Mood: creative

05:25 pm

just when things were going great everything goes bad. I guess someone not giving you an answer means they cant go with you...so im stuck going to smithville by my self..oh well thats not a big deal Laurens still awesome! but anyways  My best friend told some people that we arnt best friends anymore...then why doesnt she tell me. Like today we spent all lunch talkin about the crazy things we used to do and how we really have fun with eachother and when i get on the bus people are like "wanna know what amber said about you". Yeah that makes me feel so much better. Ugh why cant she just tell me that she doesnt want to be my friend i mean obviously she doesnt want to be friends with me any more if she told people that but come on. You dont have to act like my friend i have plenty of people i could hang out with. GOD DAMMIT PEOPLE FUCKING SUCK

Current Mood: sad

09:54 pm - rapeing cowboys..

yeah so im going to Smithville this weekend so there goes my plans for saturday but Lauren might come with me so it will make everything better. And Joey might come see me...hopefully...but yeah anyways theres this party that this guy David in my bio class invited me too its more like a get together thing..hes pretty cool. Remember Lauren we have to EMBRACE DAVID. haha hes one funny guy. But anyways im gunna go im tired and still have to go call some one *smiles* haha you dont know who im talkin about...but i sure do! haha annnnyyywwayyss later fools!

~Ct

Current Mood: flirty

08:36 pm - ridin spinners

ok so this weekend....im too tired....ill do it tomorrow

04:50 pm - i dont see nothing wrong with a little bump and grind...

fuck yeah! hahaha tonights gunna be good! Lauren your awesome!

Current Mood: excited

07:15 pm - baby i dont wanna know...

ok so for a while i like stopped partying and going out and all that stuff and i really didnt miss it but ever since last weekend all ive been wanting to do is go out. I guess im finally back to my old self. I dont know what was wrong with me...well yeah i do but everythings over. For the first time in a long everything is perfect. I wish this whole year could have been like that, but it wasnt but thats cool too. I met some really cool people this year even though some of us arnt friends anymore it was still really fun. Wow im in a really good mood. Well im absolutely going out with my girls tonight. Call the cell if you wanna meet up or something, but im probably gunna be home early im so tired. Haha Luci I have so much fun in 2nd with you im gunna miss that class like a bitch...not because i like it but because we get to play the piano with our ass! Well anyways....good luck to all the people going to prom tomorrow night i hope yall have fun!

Current Mood: happy

05:37 pm - pinche resbalosas

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

Current Mood: cranky

03:34 am

I look retarded





ok so there is my really really bad pictures haha..i look sooo retarded in that one with kerri! but that was an awesome night

Current Mood: crappy

10:19 pm

dude im so fuckin happy..for many reasons but there is that one speacial person that always makes my day.....haha. Anyways Laurens here and shes gunna spend the night tonight then we are gunna go to the lake tomorrow with Amber HOPEFULLY...it will be fun. All my Bastrop people have prom tomorrow so have fun yall espeacially you Joey! What am i talkin about i know youll have fun you better or ill kick your ass! hahahahaha * fake laugh * haha dude you crack me up. Yeah so this week went by really fast and it was really funny god some people just make my day. No one can ruin it like NO ONE. If this was a month ago i could name everyone i hate but now im just like what the fuck i dont care anymore and thats how it should be im sick of careing and all those people who think that i do go fuck your self...im not gunna name any names......other than that i <3 you !

~CourTney

Current Mood: indescribable

05:34 pm

ummm FINALLY !!!! ok if you know what im talkin abou...then hahahahah! anyways...i had to take out my bb ring today...for good :( oh well im gunna get it redone after it heals i hate fuckin salt water and soccer balls...my mom laughed at me cuz i looked like i was gunna cry wich i was cuz shes making me pay for the second one my self..oh well

Current Mood: happy

07:40 pm - SPI

ok so south padre was ok. I mean we got to go to the beach the first day and Melenea almost drown..but my leg was there to save her haha...we were way the hell out there it was scary. Then on Saturday it was raining and we decided to go shopping but while we were doing that it started pouring down rain and being the crazy people we are decided to go back to the hotel in the rain and jump in the pool. hahah maybe thats why we got sick...i dunno but it was fun...lighting and everything!! Then that night we fit like 10 people on out pourch thingy. It was great besides the driving...well thats pretty much my weekend this weekend im going to the lake i think... i havnt been to my lake house since feb. or something yay now me and amber and lauren can go tubing and i can FINALLY teach amber how to wake board...

Current Mood: sleepy

08:00 pm

She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

The rumors flew but nobody know how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night

She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away is memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby

Current Mood: mellow

05:51 pm

i miss my Tiffany!!

Current Mood: crazy

05:12 pm

wow people that lie are soooo cool...NOT....hahaha dude you just sound really dumb and its like your starving for attention. Seriously maybe if you got a life you wouldnt have to lie about every damn thing. I SWEAR TO GOD...ugh shit like this drives me crazy and how are you supposed to believe something they say like for instance not spreading rumors about you if everything that comes out of their mouth is a lie or they are talkin shit about someone else....what the fuck..!


haha ok now that im done with that, today was cool very long and boreing but other than that it was cool...to bad luci isnt going to South Padre we would have had fun! But its cool i still have meleana and sara and everyone else..well actually those are like the only people i know that are going to go...wow this is gunna suck and i have to be there with freakin Anna's mom i swear if she says anything to me im gunna go off on her...ugh!

Current Mood: aggravated

09:59 pm

09:36 pm

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.............fuck...............................................you....................................mother.........................................fucker.....................................................................................................................................................CourTney.......................................................................................................................................................................................the truth is you could slit my throat ..................
.............and with my one last gasping breath ....................
.............id apologize for bleeding on your shirt ................
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Current Mood: depressed

06:50 pm

so things are getting better i guess...like Lauren says everything is too emotionally intense for you lets switch lives haha thanks for making me feel better Lauren..your awesome. I just dont wanna hurt anyone :( you know i hate doing that. Well yeah so im like over loaded with homework and on top of everything and i have to go to UIL on thursday and look at forrest's sweat stains for the whole day..how am i gunna do it i cant even stand him for 50 mins..and we are gunna get all 5's i swear i wish i was back with Mr G. but thats why im quiting next year..! ok all i have to say about this weekend is i never realized how awesome my aunt is haha how many moms do you know would drive everyone to an after party cuz they were too drunk to drive themselves haha..oh and i got to hang out with joey wich was fun..even though he ditched me haha jk its cool. well happy 420 yall!

~Ct


I <3 you!

Current Mood: about 2 b & its my last time..